butterfly_7 charlotte FRIDA Rose brisbane i was just running from this fee carelessly sirens sound arrest me arrest me! aimlessly free i was a good girl painted with the wrong brush i was just guilty of feeling a rosy red blush they told me to stop loving hush hush i was a good girl painted with the wrong brush call me little falling fragile his memory tactile sweet funny juvenile it hurt for a while now i'm kicking it in style sipping on content tonic melodramatic no logic sounds of symphonic smiles animate king abdicate liers fabricate clock rotate the hand of fate i think he was my soulmate it happened for heavens sake i was a good girl painted with the wrong brush daggered tears restless creeping fears heavy beating hearts throwing darts torn apart im not a bleeding tart im an artist creating art it was a mess from the start kissing recklessness typing restlessness and a whole lot of mutual hopelessness i was a good girl painted with the wrong brush hush hush little baby dont you cry. lifes full of highs and emptied of lows i suppose its juxtaposed i am a big girl now on my own just me on my lonesome looking for mr right mr handsome so i can feel that wholesome charlotte frida rose Big kids in a big play ground, a catch me if you can, a frivolous chase. The frightening bounds of growing old, the burning desires of the city, the sadness upon its peril.. washed away impetuous passion devoted, lost in disarray I loved you even though I did not say RIGHT UP until that day the rain fell and you left me out in the cold. I tried to hide my scars. Mislead and humiliated. You made me feel guilty for past affairs, you sent me on a spiral of despair. you were careless with my heart, you are just a vortex of carelessness like the stains on yours sheets A blank canvas Painted with regrets … i loved in secret unable to confess such deepness perfect circle, afraid to admit my weakness sleepless nights replaying each sequence oh bitter sweetness heart torn to pieces cat got my tongue speechless jealous restless defenceless on my knees begging please wishing he could be completely mine hoping for time i didn't meet the deadline looking for a sign They're all laughing at my decline undermine unable to drop a line i am not competing she runs ahead to the finish line now his riding the pipeline with her with her it hurts it hurts haunted dreams of him of her she came in yelling tears falling couldn't he see my heart was on fire was he just a user and a liar oh bitter sweetness stolen desire, vilify fortify hurt turn the volume up amplifier why was i left having to justify afraid to admit my weakness sleepless nights replaying each sequence so blue i found jesus afraid to admit my weakness sleepless nights replaying each sequence so blue i found jesus quiet room shady gloom a vine of flowers caresses the window pane. Pain? self portraits inside a frame bars I feel insane my mother slumped clutching a blanket upon my wall. waiting just waiting for someone to call I have no clock! no tick no tock instead time I feel beats and creeps the shock alarm that doesn't exist beeps lost in a clutter of colourful memories bits and pieces I believe in fairies disarrayed across the room scattered thoughts approach with a boom enclosed faded dreams charcoal memories so it seems those men cruel and grotesque sometimes a little funny warm like something sunny feelings manifest empty bottles of wine half smoked regrets when I am restless at noon I pray things get easier soon dancing prancing drowning frowning a bunch of CDS spinning losing winning grinning number seven I am floating in heaven eleven twenty four no more its one big blur words of repetition non fiction fiction imaginary arbitrary scream! what does it all mean ! after a fall they say time heals all I need a break I made a mistake off to the mall more clutter I stutter why do we suffer? butterfly_7’s tracks Take two by butterfly_7 published on 2014-05-30T00:43:46Z