Poem (on spotify/tidal/apple music) by goonnights published on 2017-11-10T22:57:24Z (big thanks 2 taylor ochoa for background hummies n harmonys) I won’t forget how your hands fit even if you regret it I guess we all change with the seasons there don’t have to be a reason for the leaves to fall or me to call you back this time i’ll try not to cry again but i’m tired and i’m worn and ive been right here before (i’ll try, to not cry, but i lied, i felt like shit this whole time) try to call you up but I guess One year was too soon and I know you still think about how you fucked me on your front porch I’m sorry you never loved me I’m sorry this lyrics are so ugly I’m sorry I had to leave all the times you left me calls begging me please and how I ruined your life and now your mother hates me sorry for calling you up every time that I can’t breathe and for doing all these drugs when I promised I’d stay clean, I really wish I could just go back and never go inside that stupid gas station I wish I never came over I wish we never watched Palo Alto and I wish I never loved you because it’s January 4 and you make my heart thump and my hands shake, but how can I be content when You’re in love with someone else? seeing you type makes me feel sick, and it’s been four days and i miss the buzz of my phone shaking my hand like how my lips were the first time we kissed, and now i only taste you from three shots of vodka. and you say that drunk words are sober thoughts, but what if you never respond to me? Because anything can kill you especially a girl with a freckled smile and short curly hair, and i may seem fine but if someone asked I’d still studder your name. does my absence bother you? or did my presence never impact you the way I thought it did? cause you asked me to wait five minutes, but I stayed up all fucking night, and I hope his bed warmer than mine, but when he breaks your heart I’ll be here fixing my sheets for you. and you tore me apart in an attempt to fix yourself, And I really do hope you’re doing okay, and I hope you sleep full nights without the thought of me constantly poisoning your brain, because here’s the thing: we were so young and falling in love always seem like a dumb dream but I learned a lot and I hope you did too because it’s January 4 and you make my heart thump and my handshake but how can I be content when you never were? i hope you find better in someone you can find comfort in, like how i found in you, it’s january forth and we are fighting, it’s march forth and im writing this poem, it’s may forth and i miss you but you seem happy so i’ll leave you alone, it’s august forth and i dont think about you everyday anymore, it’s november and i’m okay without you. the whispered words at the last couple seconds is this: (i hope one day you let yourself out of the tomb you call your chest and you learn how to unlock all the locks he built up over time and you learn to love yourself too) Genre indie Comment by D Six years later and i still come back to this song 2024-03-28T17:50:54Z Comment by Didac98i share lyrics 2023-12-25T14:16:17Z Comment by prettyboithrill top 5 saddest songs 🙃 2023-08-13T03:34:11Z Comment by vladead i miss you 2022-04-17T13:49:24Z Comment by air yk i can now say i dont think of u much anymore and it doesnt hurt when i do 2021-07-23T23:04:38Z Comment by S1g4rk4n3 cutely cries 2020-12-22T00:01:18Z Comment by user-3678996437 BRO THIS IS ABSOLUTY THE BEST THING IVER EVER HEARD INN MY LIFE BRO OMG UR AMAZING!!! 2020-12-02T22:01:44Z Comment by recovery all these yes n i still cant get over how this song makes me fesl 2020-11-06T18:26:18Z Comment by Dylan Padilla This one reminds me a lot of her 2020-10-10T17:40:05Z Comment by S1g4rk4n3 i need to stop listening to this I went to sleep crying while listening to this 2020-09-18T14:51:24Z Comment by S1g4rk4n3 No I am not listening to this for the 16 time and crying 2020-09-17T23:03:44Z Comment by Lara man i love this 2020-05-16T01:32:47Z Comment by prettyboithrill pain is art 2020-05-10T05:17:11Z Comment by ☆ Vee 𖦹°★ ngl still makes me cry. 2020-05-08T05:55:13Z Comment by goonnights @siinju ❤️ 2020-05-01T00:32:31Z Comment by ghost host. This is incredible oh my gods i love it 2020-04-25T02:11:10Z Comment by dananny Is that eden ??? 2020-04-15T11:00:21Z Comment by $erene$InWoNdErLaNd<3 this song 🥺😪 2020-02-09T22:19:54Z Comment by ✯ sheeshjames ✯ lyrics? 2019-12-15T11:31:07Z Comment by user9263914836 ... 2019-11-28T03:29:28Z Comment by tghattabaugh100 j love this sm 2019-10-08T05:03:52Z Comment by jj if anyone is tryna be sad with me my Snapchat is "jackiethetrashy" I made it yeas ago :/ 2019-10-03T20:42:15Z Comment by D this song HURT back then 2019-09-06T00:34:34Z Comment by Lilli Mathilda i‘m crying 2019-08-02T10:44:22Z Comment by skine i love this and i always will 2019-07-21T01:08:38Z Comment by lmxh Waiting for that August 4th to be alright 2019-07-13T05:35:49Z Comment by Caro Woah 2019-07-11T05:53:01Z Comment by Hanna Lucia This is beautiful 2019-04-29T13:42:12Z Comment by MiKu ChAn Needed this 2019-04-01T23:36:53Z Comment by lmxh Listening to this on repeat for the 40th time and staring at my ceiling is 2019 mood 2019-01-06T05:07:45Z