21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]] by JOHNNASCUS published on 2020-06-23T22:09:23Z [new album when?]] Verse1: 21st Birthday Sing it in the worst way Hikikomori Mentally 30 My time is fading (yea) Soul is waning (yea) Feeling mainy (yea) Foggy Cranium My younger self would hate the person that ive become Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed. Verse2: I want to live a life outside this system Travel to a world outside the solar system & dance to my rhythm Verse3: Still fucked up in the head Try to make folks accept me Even if they don't care about me Maybe it's cause I don't care myself Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well In The Well IN THE WELL In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair Look at the world the it's so far from here I'm sinking in my own Can't climb the walls It is getting darker There are no walls See the lights spotters In my own thoughts Cannot move, I'm faltered. Verse4: 21st Birthday Sing it in the worst way Hikikomori Mentally 30 (repeated) Verse5: I'm not special & No one really is And the glass half empty Pessimistic little bitch Always feel so envy Towards every human Don't wanna feel this empty And prolonged sadness What's the point of working If it leads to nothin What's the point of something If there's no fulfillment Why is life important if I didn't choose it There's no point of living here if you cannot move it Move the world, change the world I can do that in this viddy game, save the world Get the girl Live a life, of peace & adventuring Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me "Speaking of saving" Checkpoint: 21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life. Save file: June 23, 2020 6:36 AM Bedroom Genre #oftheage Comment by Skullified! Huh?!? We won't forget you John! I know you are still on your Hiatus, but we still care about your life despite not knowing you in person 2024-05-08T17:44:11Z Comment by Stuffsmith On Viva dedwrite vibes 2024-05-01T02:59:59Z Comment by APATH best part 2024-04-26T18:17:37Z Comment by OllieJay but what's growing up? I don't wanna have my soul crushed 😥 2024-03-06T13:10:55Z Comment by BlankspotJoJo Song gives out a lot of mixed emotions , this is great art 2023-06-26T13:23:17Z Comment by Felix Monberg this is shit 2023-04-07T21:24:45Z Comment by BlankspotJoJo Euphoric 2023-03-12T00:30:33Z Comment by Hmmm i forgot I feel the same. 2022-11-28T01:31:54Z Comment by unsun6 happy 24th bday 2022-07-04T06:49:44Z Comment by _irks0me. i like that all these songs are long af cos i fw every second of them 2022-02-24T19:15:48Z Comment by Immortal J fuck this twilight princess sample is so hard 2022-02-18T00:15:16Z Comment by DEUS THEOS STOLENART.WAV_UNIVERSAL:CONNECTION-Save.trrm_file.disconnect.wa.-terminate/directory-brainwash 2021-12-07T22:02:25Z Comment by boonie ii am the 1000th like lov u john 2021-11-17T21:08:30Z Comment by ~ Amen. 2021-10-30T14:49:55Z Comment by DEUS THEOS Very spidery sounds like the things crawling behind my eyes 2021-09-05T10:23:23Z Comment by BlankspotJoJo In love with this song 2021-08-11T21:06:23Z Comment by Baron I can do that in this viddy game! 2021-08-04T19:16:24Z Comment by Jay LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO 2021-06-25T07:30:19Z Comment by huh Happy birthday 2021-06-24T02:41:36Z Comment by Elmoh Hoela see it in the worst way 2021-06-11T14:02:54Z Comment by Dis Noodle Wow 2021-06-02T23:09:27Z Comment by will happy birfhday johnascus! 2021-04-17T01:59:07Z Comment by EGO DEFF :) 2021-03-16T16:18:50Z Comment by xkilluasaiyan One of the most beautiful songs i know of. Thank you, johnnascus. 2021-03-09T13:48:46Z Comment by 005bruce nobody makes me more safer than when i listen to you 2021-02-26T06:12:50Z Comment by Skeletor👹eaterofworlds happy SPIDER DAY 2021-02-18T04:19:00Z Comment by nathan i love u 2021-02-06T07:03:42Z Comment by Soupy Sleighton theres no way he sampled twilight princess bruh 2021-01-25T04:28:51Z Comment by SkullX ur a legend 2021-01-23T00:10:48Z Comment by 005bruce i always have this feeling 2021-01-16T10:13:10Z