Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd by Rivilin published on 2022-11-01T10:54:44Z Rivilin: I know anxiety lives in me if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck try to explain it to someone but they don't understand like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine floating above this city, if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up to me, this place isn't pretty I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough there's a constant battle in me gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide with the concrete end it quickly my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up Coaastgxd: Every time I die I wake up Every time I die I… This time I'm just fine running away And I'd sell my soul just to better the days I never get a hold of this, I throw it away I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes I been playing in traffic with my emotions and I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin' Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho Can't sleep and I can't wake up "Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up" I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun Rivilin: my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine floating above this city, if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up to me, this place isn't pretty I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough there's a constant battle in me gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide with the concrete end it quickly my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up Genre Alternative Rock Comment by Ry This, but with an orchestral background would be absolutely insane 2023-12-07T01:25:23Z Comment by LyfesHectic090 🔥🔥🔥🤟🏻 2023-11-26T00:19:55Z Comment by Иван «Chitus» Волков 👀 2023-08-28T21:55:39Z Comment by itsflaynekeeps cool 2023-06-13T23:29:46Z Comment by jumbo knife ❤❤ 2023-02-12T04:59:29Z Comment by jumbo knife I wasn't notified of this release! 2023-02-12T04:59:08Z Comment by Looker оооо 2023-01-27T10:01:47Z Comment by Psichat 💜 2023-01-18T23:50:35Z Comment by MARSY ■ WATCH THE WORLD BURN ■ MDK 2022-12-25T01:31:02Z Comment by MARSY ■ WATCH THE WORLD BURN ■ MDK PURGE 2022-12-25T01:29:41Z Comment by Suicidal moth 🎶🤍 EVERYTIME I DIE .. i wakeuppppp 2022-12-20T13:57:27Z Comment by Princess Chu So fucking fire 2022-12-20T10:53:38Z Comment by Jimmy Dresher Christmas came early! 2022-12-20T05:24:40Z