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whats popping, nowadays im just talking, walking along the sidewalk
we went on, now we off like light switches, but bills still high
like me when i get flashbacks of us, ik i shouldnt do it
pop a pill, or pop the seal, cause ik the deal
u were the one supplying the drugs, pushing me under the rug
when times got hard, the drugs got harder, and omg did we lose ourself, ig thats the message in this picture, that we took
and lost hope in our life, as i was wishing for u to come back
now im sitting in class, just looking at texts, thinking whats next
i aint choosing another, because why do i bother
i still got love for u, but do u have love for me
thats the question of the day, as long as u stay
i think we can make it work, but rehab is a problem for u
the vape hits, but our love disintegrates, dont ask for money
im notcha ur honey, those late nights u were seeing the stars
as i was becoming a star, fact of the day, im moving forward
without the bottle, no more empty texts, its time to put a ex
on the spot, yk i feel bad for doing this, but memories
of past events, lead me to believe, ur already fading away
i did my best to make sure u stay
now the pills got u crazy
sayin things old u would never say, i gotta let go of them
they aint coming back again, no matter how hard i wish
it only goes down the drain, like pill spilt over by reckless actions
i cut ties, like wrist from emo bitches, delete numbers so u can never text back, flip the script so i can no longer read ur mind
please do u mind, im doing my thing, no co op, this my solo run
and these days, i gotcha u running through my mind
might smoke it, but that only lead me back to u
i dont do it so often, i remember saying those words
now im addicted and fenning for more
please dont touch me, im feeling anti social already
shotgun loaded and im ready, heard ur scared, but all i get is chills
u cant last a day in my shoes, my heart racing with stomach turning
and head burning from hot shots at beach parties
i told myself i would never do it again, so i gotta make myself worthy again, put the pieces back on again, cover myself in ice again
dress the best, only to feel the worst, trapped in this abyss
that u left me to rot in, but im making my wave
someday ur gonna find me again, old friends cross path
but i hope u feel my wraith, cause now im in trouble
we had a good run, got shot down, now im limping away
dont say ur pimping again, u went from loyal bitch to being a bitch
angrer runs through my veins, but i try to control it
dont let it take over, or here comes another essay from u
why are we talking again, if were only gonna cause more pain
these flashbacks, cut deeper than blades, i always stopped u from hurting yourself, now your alone still deep in the pain
at least your not alone anymore, you pushed me further
down the abyss, now im pissed at everything
when really thers nothing, i still feel empty without you
crawl back to u, nah i can never do it again
fading the smoke while our blunts clear
those late nights i thought i was overdosing
i saw the visions, and bright lights, i think i cant handle your thrills
you turned my love into pills, now i swallow my pride
and just carry along, cause if i stay, i may not make it this time
ur false hopes are becoming see through, maybe i can get through
these thoughts and demons, there trying to hold me
but i struggle away, dont ever hold me again
dont ever offer again, that line switch cause ill be dead like a bitch
i rather keep moving alone, than oding with you
i care so much but u dont care about me
something i shouldve noticed before
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- Lofi Trap