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help me plz
I'm 14, im suicidal and I live in The United States
โค๐งก๐๐๐๐ค
๐ต - ๐ต๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐/๐ต๐๐๐๐๐ ๐p
๐ธ - ๐ธ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐ฝ - ๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐ต๐๐๐ ๐ด๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐๐๐
๐ด - ๐ด๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
"๐ธ'๐ผ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฝ๐ด"
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hAvE a HeArT fOr *Bแดสสสษชษดษข ๐ ? Tสษชษดแด สแดแด'สแด sแด แดแดแดส ๐? -Tสแด ษขษชสส สแดแด แดแดsแด แดแดสสแดแด
าแดแด๐?... Sสแด ษชs แดษด A Diet ๐ซ๐ช. -Tสแด ษขษชRส สแดแด แดแดsแด แดแดสสแดแด
แดษขสส๐?... Sสแด sแดแดษดแด
s สแดแดสsโฐ แดแดแดแดษชษดษข แดแดแดแดแดแด ๐แดษด สแดแดษชษดษข แดสแดแด แดแดแดแดสแด แดกษชสส สษชแดแด สแดส. -Tสแด สแดส สแดแด แดRษชPpEd๐?... Hแด ษชs แดสแดsแดแด
แดษดแดแดษขส แดแด สแดแดแด๐ . -Sแดแด แดสแดแด แดแดษด แดกษชแดส แดสแด ugly sแดแดสs๐ฑ?... Hแด าแดแดษขสแด าแดส สษชs แดแดแดษดแดสส๐ฉ. -Tสแดแด ษขแดส สOแด แดแดsแด แดแดแด
แด าแดษด แดา าแดส แดสสษชษดษข๐ญ?... Hษชs แดแดแดสแดส ษชs แด
สษชษดษข๐ท. -Tสแดแด แดษชแด
สแดแด แดแดsแด แดแดแด
แด าแดษด แดา าแดส สแดษชษดษข สแดสแด
๐ฑ?...Hแด สแดs แดแดษดแดแดส๐ณ. -Pแดแด แดสษชs แดs สแดแดส sแดแดแดแดs ษชา สแดแดส แดษขแดษชษดsแด สแดสสสษชษดษข๐ซ. I สแดแด แดแดsแด แดา สแดแด แดกแดษดแด สแด-แดแดsแด๐ , สแดแด I'แด sแดสแด แดสแด แดแดแดแดสแด แดกษชแดส แด สแดแดสแด แดกษชสสโค
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๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐จ๐จ๐ง ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐๐๐ง
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฆ๐?
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐๐จ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ซ๐๐ณ๐ฒ?!
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ ๐ฆ๐?
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐ฒ๐๐ฌ ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ญ
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐ก๐๐ฏ๐ ๐ฎ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐๐ก๐๐๐ญ๐๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ฆ๐
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐ง๐จ ๐ง๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ!
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ค๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐?
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐ก๐๐ง๐๐ ๐ข ๐ ๐๐ญ
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ ๐ก๐ข๐ญ ๐ฆ๐?
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐๐๐๐ข๐ง๐๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐๐๐ง ๐ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?
๐๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ: ๐ฒ๐๐ฌ
๐๐จ๐ฒ: ๐๐๐๐
Now read it backward's
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People ask what happens durring depression, well here is what happens :
You start to feel sad, lonely, you even feel worthless, Today we will have some stories to tell because of this stupid illness that has caused us pain. For me I lost my appetite, i slept more than i usually did, and i did not show anyone what was really happening in my life. I put on a fake smile and went on with the day. Sawyer made me laugh, doesnโt mean I like him, just means he kept me from kms. People think i'm joking when i say i want to kms. Well i'm not, I have tried to, it hurts and it is very hard. People say how can it be hard, you just shoot yourself. Well you start to miss your family, and you start miss your friends, but the good thing is, someone always stops you. I want to thank trey, he stopped me from doing it, no one understands it, he helped me get past it, and I love him for it. The bad thing is, that you still feel worthless, my mom is a carrying person, my dad kid of is, but no matter what, im not good enough, My friends keep me from doing bad things, like kms, or od, or jumping behind another friend. ==================
Faking a smile is so much easier than explaining why you are sad.
I'm tired of fighting. For once, I want to be fought for.
It hurts but that's ok, I'm used to it.
Everyone thinks ur always happy, but deep inside, ur broken
Ppl think ur so kind, but everyone takes advantage of u and ur kindness
You wanna die, get away from life... but can't
Being kind never works
Victims never have powers, that's what makes them victims
And i mean everything i said
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๐-๐ป๐ ๐โ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ช๐ ๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐ง๐ ๐๐ โค๏ธ ๐๐ ๐ช๐ ๐ฆ ๐๐ ๐โ๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฅ ๐คฆ๐พโโ๏ธ๐
๐-๐ป๐ ๐โ๐ฅ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ช ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฅ๐ ๐๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
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Put a red hartโค๏ธ= Like me as a friend
Your skin ain't paper๐
So don't cut itโ๏ธ
Your face ain't a mask๐ญ
So don't cover it๐๏ธ
You are not a book๐
So don't judge it๐ค
Your life ain't a film๐ฌ
So don't end itโ
If you want people to keep their lives put this on ur page!! </3==============
โคGIRLS ARE NOT OBJECTS, BOYS ARE NOT WALLETS, BLACK LIVES MATTER, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, WHOEVER HURTS YOU, YOU ARE LOVED BY ME AND PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY CARE!๐ WE STAND TOGETHER, LET'S FIGHT BACK, NO. MATTER. WHAT. PUT THIS ON YOUR WALL IF YOU ARE WITH ME.๐