Necrophilia by Chlorine Gargoyle published on 2021-08-27T10:53:54Z My mind is ablaze with madness. I have had a rather difficult few weeks, I really struggled to compose this track, and in the end this was all improvised, then collected & re-interpreted & turned into what ever this song is.. More than anything this was just collecting a bunch of miserable frequencies rather than any type of song. That's how it feels. I wrote 5 or 6 sets of lyrics and they are just insane rambling. I was reading suicide letters and tried to include something from them to help honor and validate these poor lost individuals who chose to give up. None are directly quoted but absorbed and folded in. I used a microphone in the studio to feedback into the recording to emulate the sound of the screaming metal of a passing train as it narrowly misses you. I miss walking along the train lines at night. I used this, along with drowning everything(almost) in chorus & reverb straight from my mixer to tape, also purposefully including clipping and blown out audio to curate the awful hopeless, last ditch, atmosphere. I want to give up on music, I have before. I don't think trying to absorb my misery and then turn it into something else is useful. but I don't know what else to do. And its called Necrophilia because I'm the dead one fucking itself. I ruined many good opportunities. I'm addicted to misery. Maybe I should have called it Auto-Necrophilia? Hardware: X32, Guitar, bass, JP-08, DX7, TR-08, Feedback noise mic. Send help +++++++++ There is nothing left that i ever want to see my dreams are dead there is nothing to achieve god is dead there is nothing to believe No help is coming no one will ever miss me. I just want to be someone else please god save me from myself give me a drug that feels as good as blood its the perfect drug there is no drug as good as blood if there ever was a god i need you to know that i need you now save me from myself there is nothing left that i ever wish to see my dreams are dead there is nothing to achieve god is dead there is nothing to believe No help is coming no one will ever miss me. Genre Goth Comment by F A N T A S Y _ 1 SO FUCKING GREAT ! 2022-10-07T20:01:16Z Comment by GOLDEN CALF need more modern goth. nice work 2021-08-30T02:47:48Z Comment by ReStruKture Vocals otherworldy. 2021-08-29T05:37:38Z Comment by Plague 94 damn so many layers, it's crazy how you made the train sample fit with everything else. Amazing like usual. 2021-08-27T12:42:52Z