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I don’t know how much longer I can take it
Walls caving in and cracks all through my glass
Losing all hope and all my motivation
It feel like life is happening too fast
But it can’t wait for no one
Wish I had more time to breathe
Everyday I got to show up
It don’t matter what I need
Whether that’s a vacation, a day off, some closure, more money, more loving from someone that cares
Or my dedication to pay off, or stopping these thoughts sabotaging inside of my head
I can’t escape ‘em, my mind on the edge of oblivion, visions of life after death
Sometimes I feel like I’m already dead
Trying to be patient, alive and just waiting on positive changes, but I get upset,
With the process of trying to make progress, just bottling all my frustration,
While fightin complacency, trauma, temptation,
All at the same time for me, it’s an accomplishment that I decided to even get out of the bed
Ponder success as I’m popping these meds,
Get hot when I think about all my regrets,
Anxiety, stress
At my job for like 40-plus hours, monotonous tasks
Ain’t got no outlet but jotting these feelings and rhymes, but outside this shit, I feel depressed
Thinking ‘bout civilization, this shit feel so copied and pasted, it’s always the same shit
It’s all been so draining, desensitization, dissociating from times that we in
I try to face it
Discombobulated
Duality got me perplexed, it’s God versus Satan
What really matters if darkness will always be there to balance the light
Like why am I fighting for peace, that’s an oxymoron in itself
Fighting for freedom, you end up in jail
Always gon’ be people needing more help
Always gon’ be someone that disagrees with the message
All different sides of the spectrum, can’t change it so I just accept it
I couldn’t be someone that sell they soul for aesthetic
I can’t judge someone off a first impression
I’m ‘bout authentic expression
I want authentic connection
Give you my heart and my spirit, I just want to feel something special
Just want to feel something at all
Cause right now I feel numb to it all
Addicted to comfort, pushing myself, man I’m just trying to tough through withdrawals
I been so hurt by desire, feel like I’d be better if I wanted nothing at all
But I got to live to discover my cause
Cause most shit I don’t give a fuck bout at all
Moving through the city, uh,
Who is really with me? uh
Who just being friendly, who is out to get me?
Things I did wrong…
Who don’t want me winning?
Can I be forgiven?
Is there room for growth?
Or am I forever finished?
Should I try to fix it?
Should I move on?
Do it make a difference?
What really matters?
Is it pride?
On the grind ‘til my pockets get fatter
Houses that’s bigger and bitches that’s badder
Shitting on n***** and clips getting scattered
Envy will make n***** hate that you reaching new heights in your life, they try kicking your ladder
We all end up in the same place, every legacy dies, every heartbeat gon’ flatten
Do I have a purpose?
What’s the point of my life, is it worth it?
What’s the point of advice, is it working?
I been giving my life, I been working
If I don’t get it, do I not deserve it?
Everybody the villain in somebody story
Everybody justifying they means
Everybody justify what they see
So why does it matter if I’m a good person?
If you stay long enough, I’ll eventually hurt you
We all got problems swept under the rug, whether it’s thrifted or persian
Fear of conflict turned me into a hermit
Existential crisis, I’m hoping it might be averted…
- Genre
- Hip-hop & Rap