Moodswings To Do About Nothing by Blood Girl published on 2020-01-01T12:03:36Z lyrics: i have mood swings so bad i am scared of going out go from happy to depressed in twenty minutes and i doubt that i can focus even function if i try to go to school when half my day is crying laying in a pool of my own drool i hate these days where im frustrated and upset and overwhelmed where i am happy then i hate myself and wish that i was dead then im excited go out thrifting and then as im walking home i feel so bad i feel like shit and i just wanna be alone tired of trying and slowly detaching then randomly smiling and feeling fantastic then laying in bed for an hour just staring then reading and cleaning and laughing and caring i have mood swings so bad that i cant fathom i am real i have one too many feelings for just one person to feel im so tired i can barely keep my eyes open at best yet for 4 hours i lay awake not sleeping in my bed i spend my money oh so recklessly i dont have self control and then i feel so bad about it i just wanna stay at home my one big problem is that i have shit to do i cant just sleep the other is i am so energetic i cannot sit still frantically browsing the apps on my iphone lights my face up like an sos signal. “come home” i feel so alone but i just wanna fake it we’ll pretend i am happy till another moodswing makes it real and i eat until i almost puke, i smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, i pet my cat and i do laundry then my body is in pain, i wake up from my nap, another nightmare creeping to my brain, i get my stories straight, im ok if they ask, forget my meds and eating then i shower 3 times in a row cus its nice to feel the fake warmth to pretend im not alone. laying on my body like a caring sillhoute, instead of a chalked up silver showerhead i am so lonely and so happy im alone i am so tired of my phone i am so worried bout my friends but are they worried bout me too? i am so scared that this is it then i feel patient as can be then i feel reckless and confused then i dont know what to do and the man strongly implied that i was faking being sick to somehow make music about something where i dont know shit and i was angry as i sat in my pjs on the counter in the late afternoon having skipped school and a coward told me to get therapy and get medicated well both are things i eat for breakfast both are things i need and hell i am doing what i can and surviving so you know i am singing bout my struggles cus theyre mine to sing about Genre anti-folk Comment by honeyari im crying so hard ive never felt so attached to a song 2020-07-01T01:50:30Z Comment by Kiyah Greenwood I need the chords:') this is beautiful 2020-05-04T00:56:45Z Comment by alli / wyatt i love 2020-04-17T16:28:00Z Comment by CEREAL HEAD Yo this slaps 2020-04-07T18:43:04Z Comment by {[NAMDAMA]} I love rhis 2020-02-27T23:32:18Z Comment by Emily wtf? 2020-01-17T19:56:18Z Comment by Zak Jovanoski it's me 2020-01-12T09:55:34Z Comment by Lil Dead Star damn good stuff 2020-01-12T07:32:51Z Comment by The Golden Mantis Nice 2020-01-04T14:41:05Z Comment by Electra 13 i love this song :) 2020-01-04T13:38:11Z Comment by AB so clean Not bad actually 2020-01-02T16:47:55Z Comment by 〆 love this 2020-01-01T19:29:43Z Comment by victimsmemoir I'm so happy you posted this,, I've been listening to it on Instagram and its my favorite song by you of all time 2020-01-01T16:18:42Z