Bellevue/ Dedicated to the victims of mental illness/Text By Nick Davies by J.Rivas published on 2020-09-29T18:55:39Z Bellevue I live in New York. Manhattan, in fact. Isn't that grand? I live in Bellevue. I cannot care for myself; I have episodes. I don't know or recall what they are like, what I do or did and I am told that it is of no consequence now. I have never asked how long I must stay. Nor have I ever asked myself whether I could deal with the answer. I am here and warm and that is fine. I have my medicine when I wake. The chalky pellets are important to me. They signify another day. Another chance to let colours, murmurs, shadows, faces, routines, aromas wash through me. I may lay for hours on my cheek and drink in the clips of shoes, the clatters of trolleys, the distant dulling boathorns, the hum of the lamps. Vinnie may come over and pull out a fistful of hair from the side of his head. He always gifts it to me, with a gentle bow, pinching it between his fingers like a tiny posie. A blessing. Maddie used to come over with her bedsheets cradled in her arms to show me Esther, her newborn. A blessing, too. I used to want to run through Kips Bay, down to the railings by the river, breathing the noise and smelling the whole vastness of the city. But now I like my tiny universe...a few square yards of white walls and gunmetal grey floors. When Donald takes me on his arm to the trees outside, the tang of taxi fumes, cigarettes and street food is too piquant, too otherly. Back inside I write you a letter, like I do everyday. But the thoughts never come. Nor do the words. I drink in the beautiful, small phenomena around me. I usually draw the shapes of my thoughts because you like these things...I remember. Donald will post it, he promises. But maybe he's just saying that. If I die, you should marry Donald. He could look after you. Momma was talking to you, the last time I saw you both, but I don't know what she said. I don't like to ask them how you are.. perhaps you could write? That would be a blessing. Genre Classical Comment by Daniels & Durgy Reading the text while listening is truly quieting and peaceful. Suvch artistry on display. Wonderful. Durge 2021-03-23T15:19:51Z Comment by Wynn Schaible Beautiful music. And the text! How can one be so lucid about one's madness? It's like the writer/perceiver is somehow separate and distinct -- and yet not-- from the one experiencing the episodes of insanity. 2021-01-19T02:19:16Z Comment by Craig Winstanley nice 2020-12-14T16:06:23Z Comment by N.o.b.S. Very beautiful Synthesizer, Love the piano and especially the flutes! 2020-11-04T19:05:39Z Comment by Steve Pierce Beautiful!!! 2020-10-08T22:04:08Z Comment by Usage of Masks ( François Bourgouin & Friends) great flute 2020-10-08T04:22:16Z Comment by Usage of Masks ( François Bourgouin & Friends) majestic sounds for violins 2020-10-08T04:21:51Z Comment by J.Rivas @vinnyconte Thanks for listening from us...it's a Yamaha MX88. 2020-10-07T17:01:20Z Comment by STONERJAZZ beauiful stuff this/... 2020-10-07T16:15:30Z Comment by Liz Dicker a beautiful work James... 2020-10-06T17:32:46Z Comment by Jamie Rhind spot on guys - serious issues for sure. So many quietly are torn inside and unable to reach out, to help themselves or to face the moment or day. Look to help others who are in need - they may reach out if you are lucky. Yet so often they can't. It is your help they seek. Moving words and accompanying music Jimmy and Nick. 2020-10-06T11:56:20Z Comment by Pierre Bordetti Gorgeous music James, nice dedication !!! 2020-10-06T08:34:42Z Comment by Anomon excellent work, J. Deeply felt, beautifully expressed and recorded! Love the orchestration. <3 2020-10-06T01:00:28Z Comment by Anomon Wow...so Verry Fine! :) 2020-10-06T00:58:55Z Comment by Classical Glass wonderful music and dedication 2020-10-05T21:23:48Z Comment by MOONDUST Great 2020-10-05T17:35:22Z Comment by Gina Wood A beautiful Dedication the human psyche is fragile at times profoundly felt 2020-10-05T16:49:37Z Comment by Solar Kama Sutra like the piano a lot, nice dedication 2020-10-05T01:08:30Z Comment by The Windscale Blues Experiment Poignant reminder of the human condition and ability to make musical marvels. 2020-10-04T09:06:52Z Comment by fpmorinstudio Superb 2020-10-04T02:21:07Z Comment by Jo_Jo An exquisite track Jimmy. Heart wrenching and soulful music. A MAGICAL track and Nicks words will stay with me for a long time. 2020-10-03T23:43:18Z Comment by burn-it-smith Deeply moving, both the text & music. 2020-10-02T15:39:56Z Comment by Jonathan Beckenstein Beautiful setting for this poignant text. I imagined Nick's voice speaking it. 2020-10-01T14:17:39Z Comment by markjbennett Reading Nick's powerful text while being supported emotionally by Jimmy's delicate music, it feels like I'm being gently enlightened in an area I rarely contemplate. Bravo guys for taking on this herculean task and succeeding so brilliantly. One listen isn't enough, I had to feel this again. Everyone should hear/read this. 2020-10-01T09:19:20Z Comment by conover Well carved Jimmy.. 2020-10-01T02:42:53Z Comment by J.Rivas @bdrosa Thanks for the feedback ...well appreciated Bernie. 2020-09-30T20:18:35Z Comment by Nicholas Ridiculous Inspirational and beautifully measured music, Jimmy. It has a deep poignancy and peace. 2020-09-30T20:17:13Z Comment by Dairv Another outstanding composition, Jimmy. 2020-09-30T08:57:10Z Comment by floxyde very nice sweet journey 2020-09-29T19:22:40Z