published on
๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ค๐๐ง๐ญ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ง ๐๐ฎ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐
I remember one autumn in my life, which was really hard and emotional, because I was far away from home in a foreign country and I did not have time enough to build close relationships with people there, when I lost a friend back home. I was with myself, with the grief in a small room, listening to a lot of music, which had to comfort me instead of a real person, because I was not in the state to really open up to someone there. I was thinking about my friend, that I will never see again, thinking about what I would have done differently, if I would have known, what there was to come, how I would have said goodbye properly, because I didnโt.
๐ง๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐บ๐ป ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฌ is a lonely one too. A different one for the most of us due to the pandemic, the political developments all over the world, the fear of losing important protagonists and places of cultural life, which are essential for a democracy. There are so many conflicts in society soaking up the vacuum right now.
๐ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ป๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐ก๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐บ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ต๐๐ต after a long walk through my neighborhood and lightening candles to remember this historical date. While I did this, there was another protest going on by right winged people, neonazis and corona deniers not far away from where I live. It was the fourth day of protest and violence in my hometown Leipzig. These last days made me and my close ones shake, because we are in fear for a not peaceful future and for our democracy.
November 9th is, as I said, a historical date. That day Nazi Germany burned down synagogues in 1938 in the Reichspogromnacht. People were watching or looking away or even took part in it, when their Jewish neighbors got deported and killed and their homes and stores got destroyed. This happened in our streets here. The Stolpersteine tell the story about it.
It happened, so it can happen again. For me it never felt so close like it does now. I am crying while writing this.
๐ฃ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐ฎ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐น๐ผ๐ผ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐๐. ๐ง๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐บ๐ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต.
Also the German wall fell on November 9th in 1989. The country I was born in, did not exist anymore shortly after this. West and East Germany got reunited. But Germany still feels so divided, even after 31 years, even if the map tells something else.
All this history and guilt is in us. Most of our parents, grandparents and great-grandparents experienced all this. It is part of us and our culture.
๐ช๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐น๐ฑ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ด๐ฒ๐.
After the incidents of the last days, this is more important than ever.
I am trying to be positive. I really do. But sometimes in nights like this, it is just hard.
We are in a middle of a pandemic. We are trying to keep track, we are online too much, we are trying not to get lost, we are missing our families and friends we cannot be with due to the lockdown.
๐๐๐ ๐๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ด๐ฒ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ!
There is a lot of going on in this complex world and my mind is spinning. And like back then, when I was in pain when I lost my friend, I listen to the music that comforts me and I want to share it with you. So I made a spinning sound collage of this November with the themes, that were moving me and I picked some music from back then, when I felt very lonely and some music I used to listen to with my friend in the earlier days, some newer up lightening and melancholic stuff ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฎ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ, ๐ฏ๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐บ๐ฎ๐ป ๐ง. ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐บ๐ฒ about where a part of my heart is and will always be โ at home at the โBaltiqueโ.
This is a map to guide you and me a little through this era with an "Autumn Waterkant Quarantine Tape" for mellow.
๐ฆ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ณ๐ฒ. ๐๐ฒ ๐ด๐ผ๐ผ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ผ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ.
โ๏ธ๐ฑ๐๐
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
@lady-youdid
๐
- Genre
- Quarantine Tape