dubldragon. [Skeptik, Danny G] Happy Ever Actually by NerdcoreVPC published on 2021-06-27T20:21:10Z Verse 1: How much time in this life am I willing to consume With thoughts of mortality portending doom Yet always assumed I’d be forever in bloom Too bad I can’t produce chlorophyll by the light of the moon The spring time of life called on account of rain I’ve been engulfed in flame but still-reborn the same How many times have I told myself I’ll never be adequate But consider the skill immaculate, are both assessments accurate? I’ve bled for this, and made the mundane my nemesis Standing at the precipice is a tough spot for a pessimist So I take a step back, maybe two for good measure The thought of my own end is no longer a source of pleasure Sisyphus had a boulder, Atlas a chip on shoulder Icarus wax wings, me? I’m getting older Intrinsic and intricate, possibilities are infinite Am I indolent or ignorant or do I just not give a shit? Hook: What we have here is a non organic failure to thrive All this time on earth but not a single second spent alive I’m not convinced this is how it has to be Maybe I can live happy ever actually Verse 2: Is this a letter to myself, or a scathing editorial Autobiographic obituary, self penned memorial The inevitably once a comfort, I remember when it changed The shift from one self to another like tears in the rain Clinging to nihilism to escape the fear of death Yet decrying religious thought with each and every other breath Hypocritical in my stricture, and aware of the incongruence Though it paints a perfect picture, the truth can be a nuisance Like why am I surviving when I should be thriving Is there some grand point at which I’ll find myself arriving? Headlong when I’m diving into patterns of depriving Myself of silver linings, as if I’m content with writhing Bridge: What we have here is a non organic failure to thrive x8 Hook: What we have here is a non organic failure to thrive All this time on earth but not a second spent alive Not convinced this is how it has to be Maybe I can live happy ever actually