Broken Family by Sonni Quick published on 2023-02-19T02:10:39Z I'm in the middle. I'm not yet 9 years old, but I already knew I was going to teach music even though I had only started playing at age 7. I would bring my friends inside and give them lessons on how to play Chopsticks and later, Heart and Soul. The family in the photo doesn't exist anymore, and hasn't for a long time. My older sister isn't in it. Some of my family is still living but there is absolutely no communication. There is only animosity and disrespect directed at me. There is no love or caring. Sad isn't it? I gave up. Growing up between 1954 and 1972, when I left home to go to school, I had no intention of moving back to my hometown. I had a wonderful childhood. Children today don't experience the joy of being a child whose sole objective was being able to play outside with a dozen other neighborhood children. My parents were still kids when they got married right out of High school and had three babies in four years. My sisters did the same thing, never finding out who they were and what their talents were. Could I sell cars for 35 years? Never. We were just so different. There were many reasons that tore our family apart. My father turned to alcohol after his kids were grown, in his 40's and was dead at 54. My mother couldn't maintain the family business herself and lost everything she had worked for and had nothing to show for it. I haven't talked to my sisters in years. They are angry at me for reasons I don't understand and I gave up trying to figure it out. They don't talk to each other, either. I don't know what it's like to have a sister. Are they lonely, too? Is it pride that stands in the way? Creating music is my way of understanding what I feel. It is like my diary. From a young child I tried tried to play what I could hear inside, but I couldn't, and there wasn't anyone who could teach me that because they couldn't play their own music. It took a long time to understand and I'm not yet quite there, learning how to play the piano from the inside out. It has changed the way I teach. Anyone can learn to read music but only a few can actually hear their own music. I've written a lot of music for people as gifts and music for my own family, especially the newest babies. Number 5 great grandbaby is due in a few months. Hopefully it is something they will keep to always connect me to them. I can't change what my sisters think of me. I believe it is regretful but it is their choice, not mine. If my parents could have looked ahead and saw how we ended how sad they would have been. When I uploaded this music to SC last night I sat there, overwhelmed and cried. It is one thing to lose your family to death; quite another to lose them when while they still live. Genre Piano Comment by Derensix83 Amazingly beautiful 2024-02-23T09:18:43Z Comment by Scrapping Young Bucks Wonderful work as always! You are very gifted. 2023-12-24T06:29:15Z Comment by Dave Orestes 1 beautiful slow thoughtful pace and melody..remember/regret/rebound..families are made of people and people are a paradox of conflicting emotions..often no answer to the question why..beautiful music here. take care be safe 2023-11-21T03:09:20Z Comment by Mietzke 2 simple beautiful 2023-11-20T07:25:52Z Comment by Cookie Jay So emotive and beautifully transparent with every note played and played so very well. 2023-11-04T15:23:58Z Comment by Ron James I just read the backstory Sonni - keep writing... 2023-10-23T09:52:21Z Comment by Ron James beautiful piece. emotion inspiring... 2023-10-21T00:23:26Z Comment by NH Music Your beautiful performance tells us what is in your heart. I was healed by the jewel of your piano sound. 2023-10-04T11:13:57Z Comment by Chris Scheri I read your story about your relationship with your family and it is sad, but you have your music and that it a gift and solace too. 2023-09-21T17:03:20Z Comment by mistermark Thats amazing!! 2023-09-03T13:38:57Z Comment by tbone711 Wow, what a story, well this piece is certainly gorgeous and reflective, bravo! 2023-08-31T11:23:30Z Comment by Alba You have expressed your experiences most beautifully in this piece, which I find to be both delicate and incredibly strong. 2023-08-31T10:29:15Z Comment by No killie fish Tender composition reflecting your childhood and life. WOW 3 babies in 4 years that's a real challenge and would put pressure on any marriage, Alcohol is the go to drug for most people and it destroys lives and people. You are a testimony to your own believes Sonni. A sad family story portrayed In a beautiful piece of music. Johnny 2023-08-22T20:12:53Z Comment by Ross Smithe Tender and touching piece 2023-08-18T22:20:04Z Comment by mistermark Lovely piece of music. I’d like to try to do more like this. Would love to hear this with live instruments! Great stuff as usual... 2023-08-05T13:51:54Z Comment by Ad van Nederpelt This piece reflects your story very well 2023-07-13T19:57:19Z Comment by Inner Critic Very beautiful, gentle and sombre. 2023-07-07T17:16:57Z Comment by Herr Bänz Overwhelming beauty! ❤️❤️❤️ 2023-07-06T20:54:58Z Comment by Mike Molino This story has captivated me. Everything you've written about your family, sisters and parents and about playing the music that you hear from the inside out. I am blown away by this, and saddened. Family is touch. I experienced that in my own childhood and am now experiencing it in a similar way but in a different role as a fatter and husband. Thank you for sharing this story and for sharing your music. 2023-06-05T17:35:10Z Comment by Stuart Munro Excellent wish I could play piano that well 2023-05-21T06:24:24Z Comment by LOONY DE BUSSY That’s a nice and peaceful track ✨ Feeling concerned with your description as I learned instrument (only at fourteen!) just trying to play all the music that was constantly in my head since I was a little kid! And I use this to teach too! Thank you 2023-05-20T14:45:28Z Comment by PetraHall Wonderful emotional music! 2023-05-17T21:00:48Z Comment by PetraHall Beautiful playing Sonni and very strong words. Creating music...is my diary - I so fully understand that. I also love that what you create means something very specific and special to you, but it can mean something completely different but be as special and important to the listener. I think that's the greatest power about music. 2023-05-17T20:58:44Z Comment by CEN (Spoken Word) powerful 2023-05-13T10:43:09Z Comment by Kate Stanton Your music bio is right! Piano expression emotion--touching!! 2023-05-08T19:37:36Z Comment by Midisound Emotional piece, Sonni. 💐💐💐💐💐 2023-05-07T14:12:57Z Comment by malolo... muy emotivo... 2023-05-06T16:11:16Z Comment by Anibal Seminara Excellent !!, Very nice work!. 2023-04-30T12:06:24Z Comment by Orlando51 Marvellous piano piece !! 2023-04-30T11:18:15Z Comment by E-Ruizzo Very emotive piece, both piano line and subtle arrangement... also the reading meanwhile... 2023-04-25T20:37:47Z