Kann`s Denn Das Schon Gewesen Sein? (Could That Have Been It?) by Karlit-O-Kay (K-O-K) published on 2020-08-15T05:51:21Z It is a good 20 years ago that the diagnosis "testicular cancer" broke into my life like a thunderbolt. For a long time I have been cured of it. Nevertheless the mental and physical scars remain; and the shock, that lingers in my body memory forever over the horrified cry of the young, compassionate doctor when she discovered the tumor in the ultrasound. Time heals many wounds but by no means all. But the time of 20 years gives me enough distance to find words and sounds for what happened in and with me in the first three days after the cancer diagnosis. Lyrics in English: Could that have been it? Just came from the ultrasound Inside of me a dull thud Everything different Wanted to have children Must now bow to fate: Testicular cancer Standing` totally beside me I am like death, no feeling Could that have been it? I've only lived half a life Wanted to give so much more Why me? What sense? Is there a reason? That I am afflicted with cancer Who threw this curse on me? Just want to be alone Dig myself in in the dark Only want to sleep A part of me screams: "Free!" The agony of life is over I may die now I'm so confused I don't know what's going to happen to me Could that have been it? I've only lived half a life Wanted to give so much more Why me? What sense? Is there a reason? That I am afflicted with cancer Who threw this curse on me? Deutscher Originaltext: Kanns´denn das schon gewesen sein? Komm` grad` vom Ultraschall, In mir ein dumpfer Knall Alles anders Wollt` doch noch Kinder zeugen Muß mich jetzt dem Schicksal beugen: Hodenkrebs Steh` total neben mir Bin wie tod, kein Gespür Kanns` denn das schon gewesen sein Hab` nur halb gelebt Wollt` noch soviel geben Warum ich? Welcher Sinn? Gibt´s nen Grund? Das ich vom Krebs befallen bin Wer warf mir diesen Fluch nur hin? Will nur alleine sein, Grab` mich im Dunkeln ein Will nur schlafen Ein Teil in mir schreit: „Frei!“ Die Lebensqual vorbei Ich darf jetzt sterben Ich bin so verwirrt Weiß nicht was aus mir wird Kanns` denn das schon gewesen sein Hab` nur halb gelebt Wollt` noch soviel geben Warum ich? Welcher Sinn? Gibt´s nen Grund? Das ich vom Krebs befallen bin Wer warf mir diesen Fluch nur hin? Genre SCFIRST Comment by Wud Records There's a wonderful intimate quality to the vocal in this, splendid job on the recording. :) 2021-07-22T06:07:20Z Comment by Prime Tyme Very good! 2021-03-01T02:59:44Z Comment by Ken Minty "looking down the barrel of the gun" is something that inevitably changes the way one looks at life ... well expressed in this song 2021-01-20T04:57:59Z Comment by Mind Watching Your Elbow so touching <3 beautiful voice great guitar <3 and when the horn hits .... hot dawg 2021-01-17T18:28:58Z Comment by Interior Heaven (Artist) amazing - so personal - nice work. 2021-01-05T06:15:56Z Comment by sATer Really fine music! 2021-01-03T09:32:55Z Comment by Studio 3045 UK So lovely 2021-01-02T19:10:23Z Comment by Studio 3045 UK Wonderful warm song smooth vibe nice!!!!! 2020-12-31T12:15:27Z Comment by Pamela Illanes-Tatsuoka Composer so beautiful composition! 2020-12-15T20:36:25Z Comment by Reinis Jaunais Nice! 2020-12-06T23:14:45Z Comment by Chri Das geht tiiief 2020-11-04T14:12:14Z Comment by Didier Ganache Sax is welcome 2020-11-03T19:48:56Z Comment by Didier Ganache Nice intro! 2020-11-03T19:45:31Z Comment by Gogo Luck Nice songwriting! 2020-10-30T12:56:17Z Comment by Sandú Brus- Songs from my guitar and my heart beautiful lyric and melody ! 2020-10-24T18:03:11Z Comment by Paul Baglyos More fine work, Karl! 2020-10-13T22:06:14Z Comment by STONERJAZZ very nice tune.. lovely singing!! 2020-10-12T18:33:21Z Comment by Tom Laukemper Music Sehr emotionaler und ehrlicher Song, Karl! 2020-10-10T12:44:45Z Comment by arcaans 💖💖💖 I send you many love... 💖💖💖 Take care! 2020-10-08T11:06:49Z Comment by The S4S Music Platform Schönes emotionales Lied 2020-10-05T09:12:27Z Comment by Sugareyes sehr schon 2020-10-03T12:48:01Z Comment by DOLLY DEMELI Wunderbar! 2020-10-02T20:25:09Z Comment by Suzie muzik Schöööööön 😍🎶🎧 2020-10-02T18:58:30Z Comment by Kraftraum Traurig und schön gespielt. Fav + Grüsse:) 2020-09-27T18:15:24Z Comment by tuning_in_thunin Es kann gewesen sein, aber sicherlich ist die Musik immer so schön Gegenwärtig! 2020-09-26T20:38:48Z Comment by Richard John You have a lovely way with melody ... a wonderful haunting song :) 2020-09-25T07:54:57Z Comment by markjbennett So glad that you could turn your personal experiences into this moving song. Thanks Karl for sharing something so personal 2020-09-23T11:16:22Z Comment by Infamous Box cool 2020-09-23T04:00:34Z Comment by Lou Osiavo Wonderful expression...great outlet..thanks for sharing!!! 2020-09-22T14:26:57Z