Pretend I'm fine

Thanks to Chromatic Beats and AyoMadaf for the samples
Lyrics

I thought that would be the end
Keep on try to play pretend
Maybe i should try maybe i should try
End my life instead of putting up a fight

Yeah this car will take home put the key in the ignition
Park the car on a hill just to drown in the emissions
Now the gin mixed with gas gives me blurry strobing vision
Burning gasolin and matches hope it leads to demolition

i don't wanna die a hero, wanna pass like a musician
Except no one heard my songs, was afraid of competition
I guess that i was lucky never paid for my tuition
Getting rid of my existence, always been an intuition

I don't wanna be a victim
it's always been my intuition

I thought that would be the end
Keep on try to play pretend
Maybe i should try maybe i should try
End my life instead of putting up a fight

Yeah i hate the taste of liquor but i want to drown me
Bottled feelings flowing and now they surround me
Not too late to start, the ending would be timely
Words from your mouth that beg to try to find me

Dread stays persistent through the seasons
Words that can't describe the reasons
My Bedsheets got me locked into a prison
People beg but I don't listen

I thought that would be the end
Keep on try to play pretend
Maybe i should try maybe i should try
End my life instead of putting up a fight