closing my eyes but there is still no escape from mortality [ft. GREY]

“closing my eyes but there is still no escape from mortality”

GREY - on.soundcloud.com/4rTWFQjDM4pqs1NPA

Feeling more nauseous, I gotta go
Dealing with panic attacks back to back but I never show
Reaching new lows in my frontal lobe crawling with demons in shadows below
Molded by my trauma like I’m made of dough
Long ago I was cursed now I cannot grow
Outcast in the ocean and I cannot row, throwing me to the sharks, they smelling the blood, now I’m dying slow
Need to decompose myself
Light up the joint, rip the nic, damage my lungs cuz I don’t know what’s the fucking point
Riding down the highway I’m smoking red sweet blunts
I’m thinking bout the times I was happy, maybe it was once
I’m feeling fucking numb again and I’m heavy like cement
The burdens weighing on my brain and I’m not steady I can’t pretend
All these wounds I cannot mend
Bleeding, know they will be my end
I’m dormant and I torment as I’m reaching my descent

Rolling up blunts got that rust up in my lungs
And that smoke fill my head start to wonder if I'm dead
Roll it up and feel the dread fuck the hope and do the meds
Yeah I don't wanna die that way that way
Fuck what I do I can't feel a thang
Say that you're there but I don't see you
Fuck what you mean that i love you
Black on black boots I don't worry about a truce
You're one thing I don't wanna lose
But it doesn't even matter if I try
Try to look away and fucking die
But it don't work, still in hurt
It will hurt, like the dirt you know,
Fuck the world, i will stay, you know

Produced by oceanash