The Reasons That I'm Loving You by Yitzi

Sometimes I don’t know a thing
Not how to be
Not why I’m living

Nothing rocks me back to sleep
Like feeling small
Amidst the silent giant world

Nothing knocks me off my feet
Like staring in the face
Of empty space between

I was sitting by the pond
And no, it wasn’t the same one
That I wrote of when I thought you were the one
That I spoke of in my nostalgia

The wind was blowing all sorts of ways
The ripples painting the surface
Dancing patterns on a sunny winter day
And only I happened to notice

That the world is beautiful
Even without the music
That there’s so much to behold
Just within the moment
And the many truths I’ve held
Fly away in the wind
And the heavy love I felt
Now floats across the pond
It’s going, going, gone
Across the pond there are two swans
They’re flapping their wings hard
To stay afloat or be airborne
I’m not sure which they’re doing it for
I’m not sure if they’re going somewhere
I’m not sure why they really care
I’m not sure why we’re all still here
I'm not sure why I’m watching them

And feeling like the air is clear
And I can breathe much easier
Than when I held so tightly to
The reasons that I’m loving you