Parasocial Relationships [demo] by Lying On Tracks

this is my first song and I played it with a coin into a webcam mic, so excuse the quality
consider this a demo for an album I plan to release eventually

lyrics

My reason for living
and yet you make me want to die
So say you care for me
No word’s as pretty as your lies

You hold me so closely
everytime I drift into sleep
your warmth so wonderful
till my alarm clock starts to beep

So dont you want to form
Parasocial relationships?
And dont you wanna pull
Me further into the abyss?

Oh don't you wanna laugh
When I pay 5 bucks to tell a joke
And don't you think that my
Loneliness is profitable

I really despise you
But I can't seem to get enough
I’ll open my wallet
Please I insist just take my stuff

Pretend you’ll love me like
Nobody ever has before
your embrace wonderful
you're really pretty for a whore

[instrumental]

Feelings feeling conflicted
You don't know I existed
I dont know who to blame
Please read my username

Its getting hard to think
And I need another drink
Maybe I’ll watch your stream (because)
You are my everything

So dont you want to have
A parasocial relationship?
And dont you wanna drag
Me deeper into the abyss?

I know you wanna laugh
Cuz I’m so pathetic it’s a joke
And don't you think that my
suffering is exploitable?

So dont you want to form
Parasocial relationships?
And won’t you leave me torn
to the point real life won't bring me bliss

And don't you wanna laugh
It’s so absurd must be a joke
And don't you think that our
Relationship’s parasocial?