Holding Me

Holding Me

(Verse)
When I lay alone at night I think of times you were holding me.
Then I think of the vibes, it’s like you were planning to fold on me.
I’ll air out the dirty laundry, you spun back around like washers and dryers.
You said you were done with me; oh my gosh, you’re a liar.
We were both tired, things got too physical.
…I don’t think things got unforgivable.
I fear without you I’ll be miserable, most of the time I loved your company.
I still get flashbacks of you punching me, but I ate that it was lunch to me.
Matter of the fact
-it was around 12 a night, it was a midnight snack.
12 got involved when I hit you back.
I’m man enough to admit that that shit was wack.
My love for you is undying, eternal damnation.
Baby, I’m a warrior. I’m learning to be patient.
…one day we’ll look back on this and laugh at this.
I remember you claiming to be a masochist.
I thought you liked it rough, I thought you love the pain.
Fuck it, let me stop. I probably sound insane.

(Hook)
If you’re not holding me down you’re holding me up.(x4)

(Verse 2)
So many false accusations and insinuations
-about situations led to our separations
I’d rather reservations and dedications.
I was in preparation
-to provide, I’m still looking for a bride.
Whether or not we forgive each other is up to us to decide.
They’re going to try to divide us, but the math ain’t mathing.
I love you beside me feeling passion & laughing.
My heart breaks when I think of my mistakes.
It makes me wish that we never took breaks.
…I’m annoyed.
That time apart could have been time with each other to enjoy.
Those other people didn’t really fill the void.
…now I just want you like I’m Lloyd.
Like Lloyd banks, I have a hunger for more.
You have the key to my heart; you’re the one I adore.
I remember you telling me I’d be settling if I had chosen you.
I feel I should settle with that metal and propose to you.

(Hook)
If you’re not holding me down you’re holding me up.(x8)