chasing losses by yi2

Lyrics:

keep on chasing losses
been this way since April
met with cold December
she tied my throat up with her cables
mother says I've lost it
guess that’s far from fable
every limb dismembered just to act like I’m still stable

and could you love this body
that’s all covered up in wounds?
I look right in the fucking mirror
see a cancer that’s stage two
I cancelled on my doctor
hoping I’d get well soon
like hallmark cards could make me immune

cry my eyes out on my birthday
bout how I’m down like sumn round 4k
a bed of rocks when I lay down in this room

babe I’ll blame it on you
cause I’m allergic to truth
is the snot from tears or denial?
put a hundred on field
cause I been needing to feel
something more than just suicidal
put the rent on the Mets
sing a fucking duet
with that one red guy from the Bible
cause the plan in my head
is I’ll roll out of bed one day like I didn’t spiral

swear I’m fine
I swear I’m fine
I’m still alive
like I won’t die
it’s just a car
it’s just a drive
I go too far
you’re always right
cause hindsight’s always 2020
cause all you see is the fucking money
like all the rocks on your nightstand pay the rent

and it’s December tenth
another year where I rot in bed a little closer to death
still don’t know what to be yet
don’t know if I can forget all that you said
like 1000 hours go away with one deep breath
a baseless threat
but trust one day I’ll make you regret
that you

couldn’t love a body
that’s all covered up in wounds
took a break to 305
and 505 lost its groove
said we were forever
hit the under half through June
mom said never gamble on being groom

so maybe I’ll fuck this up
so maybe I’ll fuck this up
so maybe I’ll fuck this up

BITCH I’LL
KEEP ON CHASING LOSSES
GO ON, BLAME MY DNA
LIKE THERE WASN’T ALREADY 20 DIFFERENT MENTAL ISSUES IN MY BRAIN
LIFE STOPPED BY TO FUCK ME
GOD CAN RUN HIS RIGHTEOUS TRAIN
TILL THE DAY IM DEAD KEEP ON CALLING ME INSANE
CAUSE YEAH IM FUCKING WOUNDED
ARE YOU STUPID? ITS ON MY FACE
ILL KEEP PICKING UP THE PIECES TILL I LOSE TO THIS DECAY AND ILL TELL THE DOC ITS NOTHING
TILL THE TUMORS TAKE THE GREY
ILL LIVE IN SPITE OF YOU ILL THE DAY THAT YOU’RE ERASED cause it’d be such a waste

to end on an L